I want to die.
Im fat, ugly, gross, stupid. Theres no reason for me to live anymore.
Get over him. He’s not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yeah you loved him, everyone knows that and we all know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, we get that. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yeah you’re gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cause straight up; its gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows you’re watching. He knows it’s killing you; that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn’t talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an asshole like him anyways? The thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s isn’t him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he didn’t love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don’t you sit there thinking he won’t be sorry because I can guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that inbox you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He likeS to pretend he does not see you online, he does it out of spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you he is gonna look straight at you and keep walking, but you need to know he will do that because he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I’m gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It’ll hurt alot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. Its all gonna hurt. Knowing your not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of first when he wakes up and last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn’t already he will delete the album of pictures of you on his computer. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; hes got too much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn’t tell you. Your soon gonna realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he wont be the first person you call when your upset. He wont be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yeah its gonna hurt; its gonna hurt alot. But you know what your gonna do? Your gonna hold your head up. Your gonna show him your better than him and you don’t need him in your life.